Sinqerisht nuk mbaj mend nj\u00eb koh\u00eb kur nuk besoja n\u00eb Zot. Q\u00eb kur isha f\u00ebmij\u00eb, m\u00eb flitej p\u00ebr T\u00eb dhe i lutesha Atij - madje edhe n\u00eb heshtje me veten time. Gjithmon\u00eb jam ndjer\u00eb i bekuar n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb dhe e fal\u00ebnderoj shpesh Zotin p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb. Nuk kam kaluar kurr\u00eb nj\u00eb periudh\u00eb ku k\u00ebrkoja kuptim ose identitet. Jeta m\u00eb dha p\u00ebrgjegj\u00ebsi dhe gjithmon\u00eb kishte di\u00e7ka p\u00ebr t\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb q\u00ebndrova i p\u00ebrqendruar n\u00eb ecjen p\u00ebrpara. Sigurisht, kam ndjer\u00eb faj, frik\u00eb ose turp si kushdo, por nuk mund t\u00eb ndalesha n\u00eb ato ndjenja p\u00ebr nj\u00eb koh\u00eb t\u00eb gjat\u00eb - kishte njer\u00ebz q\u00eb vareshin nga un\u00eb dhe kjo m\u00eb mbajti n\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00eb. Nd\u00ebrsa spiritualiteti im ka evoluar p\u00ebrmes studimit dhe v\u00ebzhgimit, kam arritur t\u00eb njoh dhe t\u00eb ngush\u00ebllohem nga nj\u00eb kuptim se marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnia ime me Atin fillon dhe mbaron me marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnien time me Jezusin. Ai \u00ebsht\u00eb standardi tok\u00ebsor dhe qiellor q\u00eb p\u00ebrpiqem me dob\u00ebsi ta arrij.
Ndjesia ime e pranis\u00eb s\u00eb Zotit ka qen\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb e q\u00ebndrueshme. Nuk mund t\u00eb tregoj nj\u00eb moment dramatik ku gjith\u00e7ka ndryshoi p\u00ebr mua. Edhe gjat\u00eb koh\u00ebs kur nuk merrja pjes\u00eb rregullisht n\u00eb sh\u00ebrbesa, un\u00eb prap\u00eb besoja dhe prap\u00eb lutesha. Gjithmon\u00eb e kam ditur se Zoti po m\u00eb udh\u00ebhiqte, duke m\u00eb m\u00ebsuar t\u00eb dalloja t\u00eb drejt\u00ebn nga e gabuara dhe duke m\u00eb kujtuar t\u00eb jetoja n\u00eb nj\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb q\u00eb e nderon At\u00eb. Nuk e d\u00ebgjoj z\u00ebrin e Tij ashtu si\u00e7 e d\u00ebgjoj z\u00ebrin e nj\u00eb personi tjet\u00ebr, por ndihem m\u00eb af\u00ebr Tij kur lutem, kur fal\u00ebnderoj dhe ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb kur adhurimi ose muzika m\u00eb prek zemr\u00ebn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nd\u00ebrsa jam rritur, kam arritur ta shoh m\u00eb qart\u00eb se jeta ka t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb me sh\u00ebrbimin ndaj t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve. Nuk ia arrij gjithmon\u00eb mban\u00eb - luftoj me egoizmin dhe me humbjen e koh\u00ebs - por e di se rezistenca ndaj k\u00ebtyre impulseve m\u00eb afron me Zotin. Nj\u00eb nga gj\u00ebrat q\u00eb m\u00eb jep paqe \u00ebsht\u00eb t\u00eb di se vlera ime nuk matet me sa shum\u00eb b\u00ebj ose sa i suksessh\u00ebm dukem. Problemet dhe detyrat e p\u00ebrditshme mund t\u00eb duken t\u00eb pakap\u00ebrcyeshme, por i kujtoj vetes se ato jan\u00eb vet\u00ebm t\u00eb p\u00ebrkohshme. Jeta ime k\u00ebtu \u00ebsht\u00eb gjithashtu e p\u00ebrkohshme dhe kjo m\u00eb ndihmon t\u00eb q\u00ebndroj i p\u00ebrqendruar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnia ime me Zotin ka qen\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb e thjesht\u00eb: Un\u00eb lutem, d\u00ebgjoj dhe fal\u00ebnderoj. Kjo lidhje e q\u00ebndrueshme m\u00eb ka shoq\u00ebruar gjat\u00eb gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebs sime.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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